October 2010
I think sometimes I must hit a level of stress...
Which means— I get terribly depressed. Like stress causes my brain to overwork and when that happens I start feeling awful. I can’t function. Tonight has been awful.
I feel like am invisible at the same time people keep saying they so wish they were in my place and not having to do recruitment but they don’t know that I’m stuck doing absolutely nothing while they get to...
What's one thing I want to do..?
laurenceiv:
I honestly would love to travel around the nation with a circus. How mother effing cool would that be?! I swear to God I’d go around helping them as much as I can; I just want to be there with them and document their lives. I need to take a photo journalism class now…
TRAVEL!!!!!!!!!! D;
Oh man. Laurence if you at all like to read you should get Water for Elephants by Sara...
I'm not amused.
September 2010
Listen
I suspect a long rant coming soon...
I warned you. So be prepared. I’m just too tired now to sit here and stay up later typing everything out.
so, until tomorrow.
Woke up and wished that I was dead With an aching in my head I lay motionless in bed I thought of you and where you’d gone and let the world spin madly on Everything that I said I’d do Like make the world brand new And take the time for you I just got lost and slept right through the dawn And the world spins madly on I let the day go by I always say goodbye I watch the stars from...
I feel like I'm just trying to get through...
SO WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?
Why is this so depressing?
buildc0ffins:
Passion Pit - Sleepyhead (Stripped...
Today is one of those days,
where I just want to cry to get out all this bad feeling, but I’m at school and around loads of people… so I can’t. :(
I don’t know what’s wrong but I feel awful. I just want to go home and curl up in a ball and not go to school or band, and not see anyone. I just want to be alone and work on my journal.
I'm afraid I will dissapoint people.
Why did I have to be so on top of my shit in high school?
I'm so excited Darren Criss got the part on Glee....
:)
Apparently...
Tomorrow instead of going to rehearsal in the morning the whole color guard is going to the dance auditions/placement tests for dance classes at the University. ALKSJAL:KJD I’m so not prepared for that type of thing. I was so fine with just being in the level 1 class and not caring, but now I feel like I have to care and try really hard… even though, I’m not that great of a...
2 more days.
2 more days. 2 more days. then band camp is over.
Just gotta keep telling myself I won’t collapse from exhaustion and I’ll make it.
This is honestly like my favorite song right now....
I'm so drained.
So yesterday, I thought I felt tons better compared to how awful and sore I felt last week, but today I FELT AWFUL. Like my head wasn’t functioning and weights had been tied all over my body. :(
Watching Merlin while waiting for people to get...
We were supposed to go at 5 but they decided to go to the mall and not tell me.
= MY LIFE.
okay, so...
I haven’t been on tumblr for like 5 days. MAJOR WITHDRAWL! Color guard is going well but it is majorly exhausting (hence me not being online at all). All I have time to do besides practice for the 9 hours a day we have rehearsal is eat and sleep. Tonight I finally went to the store to get some stuff that I needed for the game on saturday but besides that I’ve been coming straight home...
Going back to Eugene tomorrow
So much is happening, so fast.
I’ve got pretty much everything all packed up, but I definitely don’t feel prepared to leave. Not like last summer. I felt so ready then, everything was perfectly in it’s place in a box and I had lots of time to adjust to my new living space before I had anything going. Not this time. Tomorrow my mom and I drive down to Eugene and stay in a motel...
I dreamt that I was marrying a guy I dated in...
It was strange.
But we were happy.
?
I'm loving working on my journal.
I could do this for the rest of my life.
